I AM DONE WITH MERCURY RETROGRADE.
It was a chaotic blessing
So my dream brain just told me this:
"Don’t disconnect your understanding of what life may start"
So cryptic. Der?
Santa Cruz, CA (June 6, 2014)
I’ve been so conflicted lately, holy shit.
Yet, I feel tremendous inspiration.
I just want to be raw, real and selfless with people. Honest, emotional, vulnerable and ALIVE!
Pretending has made me suffer and made me selfish in trying to maintain an image. What for? To protect my relations. Out of fear? How absurd.
I am alone, but also not so. Because aloneness means self liberation from the tangles and illusions of separateness. I am not alone if I am happy wherever I go and whoever I meet. Happy for being in control and being accountable for my choices.
Alone means doing what you want. Being firm and clear in your intentions. And setting the stage for what you do and don’t want to appear in your life. Not out of spite for the bad, or dependence on the good - you are just free from both affecting you adversely.
Freedom of a balance within oneself.
Tahoe National Forest. My first proper solo drive in ‘murica with only a faint clue as to where I was going. It was simple, yet great!