I miss subverbal communication. I miss subconscious and mutual understanding. I miss sharing peaceful smiles. I communicate mostly body language and through genuine peacefulness. I miss connecting heart to heart. My soul is missing that. My soul misses truly connecting projects to align with greater purpose.
I felt a lot of emotion. I realize I need a good dose of alone time. I haven’t had that in 2 months! My travel buddy went home yesterday. I’m now traveling solo again, so there’s two sides to how I’m feeling. Peaceful from having no obligations and surrounded by new and beautiful environments, but I’m also feeling strange in an unfamiliar context.
I’ve been meaning to really dig deep into myself and create some new art. I have so much feeling right now. New coding, new energy to integrate and express. Art would be the most accurate, second to music, which I haven’t perfected the technique for. I’ve especially accumulated feeling from months of exploration and new energies from places across USA and from all the beautiful people we’ve met.
Exploring alone is surely.. Painfully liberating.
So the museum of history in NY is spectacular. All the exhibits have wonderful information, some are stunningly beautiful, and some would make me emotional. Towards the end, I laid down in one of the exhibits and stared at the high ceiling which projected intense blue colours and water-like motions, very hypnotizing. I was surrounded by a sea of strangers, and yet I could listen to my music and zone out as if I was alone. It was so spacious and calm. Where else would I find this peace in NY? It’s a busy place!
Central Park is also a really neat place :) I like seeing people chilling, bonding, having fun, being creative, exuding happiness. I think I’ve decided I like to help people be happy in themselves. There’s enough drama already!
And I miss peaceful people so much. So much. My heart just.. Misses isolation and mountains and the quiet warm deserts and people who energetically recognize my energy without saying many words. Communication is so difficult verbally. I’ve been stimulated so much with people talking new ideas or just talking, that I need some time to cleanse alone now I think. I’ve felt myself go into little meditations here and there. I haven’t even cried for months (because I haven’t had alone time!) which is extremely unlike me. It helps me cope, integrate, release all the pain and beauty and truly connect to myself and to all that exists. I’ve felt myself get a bit teary a few times, the flood gates will open soon, I’m sure lol.
On another note, I’m super pumped to create projects and keep riding the wave of life’s path. I’m excited for it. Life is inspiring so many ideas.
Also worth mentioning is the awesome festival I went to this weekend! Farm Fest! I went with Matt and Mel and I met some new people and had a really good time. I saw most bands and met Rain from Phutureprimitive! His music was the reason I went there, I planned to go before I even left for USA! But there was such good music, soul expanding, loving music. People also dressed up and performed on their own creativity. Fire poi, oh my!
Good day! Choose love! Laugh and cry and live!
Crater lake is insanely blue! I could stare at it for hours!
“I think the most amazing fact I learned was that they have a part of the brain that we don’t have—a part that we can’t even identify. This suggests that they sense, understand, and even feel more than we do. It still blows me away to think about it.”—Gabriela Cowperthwaite, Director of Blackfish
The energy of the Grand Tetons is interlocking with my soul.. I’m transfixed. Deeply grounding and intense. Deep tranquilizing peace. My heart feels so happy here.
We arrived at night at the Teton Village and all I want to do is spend time outside. This ski resort is so warm and inviting at night. The moon is out. I feel so safe and happy. They have the cutest dimly lit areas (no street lamps or bright lights whatsoever!) and I’m in love! The air is fresh! The mountains loom over us.
Ahhhhh my heart