Alyeska, February 2014.
hug me! HUGGGG ME!!!!!!!!!!! adlhfldjghl;kk
YEAAAAAHHHHHH :D It’s right about that time!
Its 4:20 here. you know what that means?!?!?!? time for bed. shit.
Lmao or….ITS EVERYTHING BURRITO TIME!!
11:11 on my side of the globe!
Time for a global hug!!
Skype me. I invoke thee! - hybridmachine41
One of the principles of the Baha'i Faith is equality of women and men, so no, not all religions are like that.
My casualness of comment was very ignorant of me! I made that post when I was very tired and introspective, so there’s actually much I wanted to edit, lol. And I didn’t mean all religions of course! I mean there’s the eastern religions which are not as imbalanced. I’ve never heard of this faith you speak of! Interesting.
Hmm wow. Many religions were manipulated to take away the female wisdom and equality. That is why we must restore the female aspect to all teachings to restore balance. It is a wonder why female energy is feared so much, suppressed and abused against. And not only towards people but to earth and the whole system! Abused! Because integrating feminine, empathetic, sensitive energy would be harmonious to society, as well as a threat to the current model. Not only that but generally, each man and woman are imbalanced and confused because of this focus on male dominant energy. So we suppress it in ourselves and each other. Embracing feminine Mother Earth energy will rebalance souls too so people can better connect. And a happy and wholesome people are a threat to current society too!
Does this make sense? Sorry I’m rambling and it’s late at night.
Confidence, self-esteem and self-love.
Dude. Bursting with love.
Also just some thoughts to drop: getting better at a job I dislike, because my confidence and casualness is exceeding my worry. The pressure just adds character. I don’t get as stressed. It becomes like a game. And I could not care less if I lost my job, but I am having lots of fun regardless. And I figure there’s always something to learn, someone to help there too! Which is nourishing. Also, super happy more shifts and responsibilities are being thrown at me even though I’m disappearing into another country real soon. I find it funny that as soon as I relinquish power, I get it. Also funny is just observing that the main thing that has made my experience more enjoyable has been my own attitude and growing confidence in myself.
Also, Visa appointment is happening! Holiday is creeping closer. Planning specifics is the only thing creating fear and anxiety right now. That and just.. Traveling alone is scary too, but thrilling. I am still very much a kid. But I have thick skin. I’m not sure. Will I be okay emotionally. I’m sensitive in some ways.
And I just am at peace with myself, somewhat fragile in a way, but never compromised. Content. Balance means not expecting too much or too little of life, and really just keeping your energy for relevant, everyday actions and goals.
Getting better at cooking. Getting better at creating art. Getting better at loving others and communicating, since I’m such a quiet person people take it the wrong way. Learning to open up and talk on a level that is mechanical has been tricky. But it comforts others and I do it for them, and also because it helps bond. It’s rare I can bond in silence with a friend. I guess people have a neurotic need to talk because silence is too unsettling. But then again, laughter is also good medicine, so telling stories is good.
What else. Once I went to work somewhat high. I do not regret this at all. I was so uninhibited and not blocked off by self esteem issues. My fears about how I would appear dissolved, so everything turned out better!
I’m really grateful for my comforts. I love that I can go to sleep in peace and warmth. I love that my body radiates heat at the perfect temperature at rest. I love having days off and sleeping in. I love waking up slowly with tea and sitting in the sun outside in the garden. I love that I have access to food and information. I love that I can talk to people around the world. I love that people respect my need for solitude. I love greeting my cat and observing her and napping with her. I love warm days. I love the feeling of my skin after coming from the beach. I love all the opportunities available to me. I love discoveries.
Hmm. My car has been in servicing for 2 weeks, I wonder if catching public transport has humbled me a bit. The convenience of a car can make me impatient in a busy city.
Anyway. I’ve learned to let go in some aspects of my life, reach out in others, to push limits, and yet also to slow down to appreciate. Most importantly, to have fun.